Banners of Discontent

Perhaps this journal should be called 'Musings of a Mental Midget' - more of a reflection of my current mood. It feels like we're caught in a backwater, spiraling slowly in place, making no progress. In fact, I think we're moving backwards at a rather good pace.

Nothing sabotages a project with greater efficiency than apathy. When a team member digs his heels in, passive-aggressive states firmly entrenched in the beach-head, nothing gets done. It takes too much energy to cajole things back into place.

We're at a stage in the development where we cannot afford the luxury of apathetic individuals. There is no particular stage of development where we -could- afford this luxury, but now even more than other times, there exists a fragile balance between stasis and collapse.

So sad - so many years invested in a project, so sad to feel it crumbling despite best efforts to keep things together.

I will not let it crumble entirely. I just have no clue how to prevent it at this very moment. Nothing in my years of corporate experience has prepared me for this. Nothing in the years of business ownership prepared me for this. Or - perhaps something has, and I'm too inwardly focused to sense how to apply the normal enthusiasm...